“Who Do I Think I Am?” My Battle With Imposter Syndrome
There are moments I sit down to create, and suddenly… everything in me wants to disappear.
I’ll open my laptop, filled with ideas, ready to pour my soul into something that might help someone else—and then a voice creeps in, soft but sharp:
“Who do you think you are?”
“No one’s going to care.”
“You’re not even that good.”
“Other people are already doing it better.”
And just like that, the magic starts to shrink. My body tenses. My fingers freeze. My dreams go quiet.
That’s imposter syndrome. And for me, it’s not just some passing insecurity—it’s been a constant, whispering companion on this journey of creating, mothering, dreaming, and becoming.
What Even Is Imposter Syndrome?
Imposter syndrome is that inner critic dressed in a lab coat, acting like it knows everything.
It makes you doubt your own achievements, downplay your brilliance, and convince yourself that you’re just “faking it”—even when you’re showing up with heart and truth.
It’s feeling like a fraud in rooms you belong in.
It’s being afraid someone’s going to “find out” you’re not as capable, smart, talented, or worthy as you appear.
But here’s what no one tells you:
Imposter syndrome doesn't show up because you’re unqualified.
It shows up because you’re expanding.
When Dreams and Doubts Collide
I’ve always been a deep feeler. An observer. A dreamer with big ideas and even bigger fears.
Now, as a stay-at-home mom building The Secret Mantra, trying to turn my passion into something meaningful—I constantly wrestle with this strange duality:
I know I’m meant for more.
But I feel like I’m not enough.
It shows up when I want to launch a product but think, “Nobody’s going to buy this.”
When I write something that feels profound and then delete it because, “It’s probably cringe.”
When I see someone else killing it online and immediately wonder if I should just give up.
And maybe the hardest part?
Even when people do support me, love what I make, or tell me I inspire them… a part of me still doesn’t believe them.
That’s the most painful part of imposter syndrome—it builds a wall between who you are and what you allow yourself to see.
Why This Hits So Hard (Especially for People Like Us)
If you’re sensitive, soulful, creative, or constantly reinventing yourself… imposter syndrome will try to follow you everywhere.
It feeds off transitions, vulnerability, and the unknown.
It clings to people who actually care—about doing things right, being in integrity, and making a real difference.
That’s the cruel irony:
The ones most likely to doubt themselves are often the ones with the most to give.
The Cost of Staying Small
For me, imposter syndrome has cost me more than I’d like to admit:
Opportunities. Confidence. Peace.
Ideas I never launched. Art I didn’t share. Words I swallowed instead of said out loud.
And time—so much time, spent second-guessing instead of starting.
But the truth is: no one else can give me the permission I’ve been waiting for.
No one’s going to knight me with worthiness.
I have to claim it.
We all do.
How I’m Learning to Quiet the Voice
I haven’t “cured” imposter syndrome. (If you have, please tell me your secrets.)
But here’s what I am learning:
The voice isn’t me. It’s just a scared part of me trying to protect something tender.
Starting creates evidence. I don’t need to feel ready. I just need to take the next step.
Affirmations work when I believe them slowly. I don’t need to fake confidence—I just need to nurture it.
Showing up imperfectly is powerful. Every time I share something that scares me, I shrink the shadow a little more.
I am not alone. The more I talk about it, the more I realize how universal this is.
If You’re Feeling It Too…
Let me say this gently and with everything I’ve got:
You are not a fraud.
You are not behind.
You are not too late.
You are becoming.
Imposter syndrome is loudest at the edge of a breakthrough.
So if you’re hearing that voice right now… it’s probably because you’re getting closer to something real.
Keep going anyway.
Your presence is the proof.
Your heart is enough.
And the world is already better because you’re in it—daring to do this, even with shaking hands.